For a full month now I have been trying to put together some sort of cohesive type of photo based non-magazine "thing". I have learned InDesign, learned how to build a website with Squarespace, tried to come up with compelling things to put on the site in the hopes of making it the go-to place for new releases, tutorials, articles and whatnot. Hopefully making it appealing to advertisers to help support me in keeping it going...many goals to achieve in all that I suppose.
The Lookbook is mainly just a passion project, to showcase other photographers who blow my mind and move me with their images. I spent many nights up past midnight, most of them actually, just trying to stitch it together just right.
It has been through about a hundred different variations. It has been tested on three different online publishing platforms, I have picked the brains of my family and friends who have given me amazing advice, some even told me it was boring, which hurt my feelings but they were right. It made the book better and really it made ME better.
Every time I would change something, somewhere in the long line of pages something else would get fucked up and I'd end up having to fix that and reupload again, and again, and again...man, what a lifetime this month has been lol. Did I mention that the digital and book versions are actually three different complete layouts...sigh
Today, I finally release this visual journey onto the world and RIGHT as the momentum gets going I realize I completely fucked up something. It was a something I could not forgive myself for overlooking and so, I had to - once again, reupload for the 187 time.
so, Now all those shares I had gotten, all that support I was receiving was a bust.
All I can do is shake my head and giggle about it. It's all fine, just a bump, a really really painful fucking bump. But it made me realize that it's just a little thing. This little thing that I had put SO much time and energy and STRESS into...yes, it is something I care about very much but why did I put SO much weight on it? The world will not end because of this.
IT'S OKAY, SHARON.
The Lookbook is done, people seem to like it and ultimately THAT is all that matters. It's not about likes, or shares, it's about people enjoying what I made. One person or one thousand people, it doesn't matter that I screwed up the release.
In the end, I am proud of it. So, I let go of the stress over it.
I am now going to take a break before I start pushing to the next goal. I need some time to play with my toys, lol.
Here's to Volume 2 - may it be just a little less stressful ;)
Love to you all!